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My life was more than messed up.  But my life changed one weekend when I was hanging around with the fellows getting high smoking weed and drinking.  I relapsed and took some cocaine and something deep inside of me changed.  I thought, “If I died right now, what would happen to me if there was a heaven and a hell?”  Then came back the obvious answer - I was a lost person because I would have died and gone to hell.  I remember saying, “You know man, I don’t ever want any more drugs, I’m through with that.”  I just felt so distraught - I felt I was wasting my life and shaming my family.

Later that Saturday night a guy from Lincolnton, GA came to see the next-door neighbor.  A buddy said, “Come listen to this guy, man he is deep.”  I thought, “I don’t want to get any deeper because I’m so deep now I’m drowning.”  I really did not want to hear it, but I went to listen to him anyway.  He was talking about the characters in the Bible like Abraham and David.  He said if we really want to change, God can change our lives.  And I thought about it and I started crying because I knew everything he said was right.  Talking about it later one of the guys said, “You remembered everything he said”.  I answered, “Yeah, I can’t seem to help it; I can’t get it out of my head.”  (In that regard, you don’t choose God, He chooses you.)

I had to get away from that environment for a while to get my head together and went to the County building and talked with someone who works with drug and rehab situations and they had a guy take me to Newberry and he gave me some money and said, “This is your chance right here - either you do or you die, and you will or you won’t.”

The fifth day it was time to come back home and I was glad to see McCormick again. At my sister’s I asked her if I could have one of her wine coolers and she said no.  I am now so glad she did because I wanted to be rid of all that stuff, and from that day on I never had the desire.

And it all came from the fact that one guy in Lincolnton GA - who I know nothing about and who I haven’t seen since - shared the Word of God and how God can use you.  No matter how messed up you think your life is.  And that turned my whole life around.  Don’t get me wrong, to this day I still struggle with some things; but my heart’s desire is really changed.  All I want to do is walk in the principal of Christ, be more pleasing to Him, honor His Word, and I truly want to stay in His will.

I hope you take these words to heart because if you truly want to change your life, it won’t come through your own power.  It will come through the power of the Spirit of God; but you gotta want to change, and you gotta be sick and tired of being sick and tired.  God can change your life if you just let Him.  I know a lot of people evade the prospective of hell but Christ is the God of Justice, and although He’s the God of Love more than anything else, He cannot deny His Justice.

There’s a lot of people fail to remember that when temptation comes your way, you always have to ask for God’s help. It’s not that He can’t do it if you don’t, but God wants to reference the fact that He’s the source. And He’s been my source ever since, He really has.  And if you don’t believe that He is real, well just ask Him to make Himself known, and I guarantee you, He will.